How do you
pulsate and vibe?

I am a person who listens to gut feelings than logical thinking. I did a personal relationship mentorship programme with Sridhar in 2018 last quarter . When I heard about how he would be doing the 1-on-1 session, I realized it would shred my old pattern and empower me to enter the new year as Mousumi 2.0. Yet i never knew what would come up and where it would take me. I knew that I would move the needle of my energy for sure.

The beginning: I had read the requirements very clearly, and once the course rolled, there was no looking back, I was clearly drawn to the complete process and never had an iota of doubt about my mentor. I responded to all the questions deeply looking within and brought my innermost feelings and thoughts out on paper.

After every question, I had to pause. It was very exhausting and emotionally draining.

The process: My Yin Yang energy clearly needed a balance. My mentor’s guidance kicked off. In this period, there were moments when I wanted to give up because the process and exercises were stirring a storm within me – buried emotions were coming to the surface. My shadow was overpowering my being. I experienced enormous physical discomfort in the form of high fever , flu and coughs.

However, despite this, within me there was immense stillness which i never knew I had. I continued my exercises that was given and boom one day, the energy just flowed!

The energy within me that was shenpa became a Rigpa (Shenpa is sticky whereas Rigpa is Sky like openness). After many years of bookish knowledge, I closely experience first-hand how energy can only be transmuted from one form to another. It can never go away or vanish. I continue to practise some of those exercises and keep learning.

Changes in my life: Soon I was offered a role which many in my industry dream about. It was my dream too. I never knew how to deal with that kind of offer until I actually received it. It sparked a new realization within me -  you need not know the how; you only have to clear the now. In my own poetic way, I always tell myself - all my prayers are always answered immediately and instantly, This thought keeps hovering over me all the time.

I was happy for the change in my profession. In my personal life however, my relationships were not that smooth. My parents underwent a series of health issues. What transpired within me then is something that on retrospect I realise is the power of energy. I became extremely calm, focused and absolutely living in the moment without fear. 

The result? Complete strangers supported me. I could avail of the services of the best hospitals and doctors – everything happened with so much ease. Even the arrangement of finances happened without any particular planning. It’s Alchemy; I just asked and I had received.

A lot of change did happen around other relationships - friendships, colleagues and new teaching and teachers. The embracing and inclusion of this energy was not easy because going back to the old pattern was always an option. Yet I chose to move ahead and create a better me.

My career is moving in the direction for my highest good. My new version is experiencing the new me and my future me is eager waiting with openness.  

The single lesson I learnt was I cannot change anyone except myself as everything around me is my reflection. I am ever grateful to Sridhar for being the guide , the inner Google to know yourself in your own way at your own pace.